Coming To Terms
June 11, 2018
As a child I was always told that being different and weird was okay. Unfortunately that was very wrong. Growing up I was the odd one out. I constantly felt isolated and alone. Kids ran away from me, they would whisper secrets as I walked by. Even the so called ‘nerdy’ kids didn’t like me. I didn’t understand what I did wrong and that feeling lingered with me for the next couple of years.
Once I reached middle school I thought I had finally found my people. My whole world had finally changed, but that was short lived. They soon started to develop a dislike for me. I stopped getting invited out. They made group chats without me, and they all talked behind my back. I feel into a deep depression. My walls came crashing down, everything around me felt as if it was falling apart. Day after day I continued to wonder to wonder what I kept doing wrong, was it because I was ugly, fat, loud, annoying.
Then it hit me. I finally understood it wasn’t me, it was them. I had to stop caring, and dwelling in the past. I developed a new sense of confidence and self-love. I was stronger, happier, and I started dressing in ways that made me feel beautiful. I surrounded myself with people who truly love me for me. Now I love myself and I am constantly doing me and not letting anybody’s opinions stop me.
Learning to love and accept yourself for who you are is how you will grow into an amazing person.